i miss my buddy and being home

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perfection has been a topic discussed a lot lately, perfection for us is living up to stewardships and refraining from idleness. doing what you can when the time is yours. to never forget your loved ones. to not abandon your beliefs.

He that hath clean hands, and a pure heart; who hath not lifted up his soul unto vanity, nor sworn deceitfully

Use boldness, but not overbearance; and also see that ye bridle all your passions, that ye may be filled with love; see that ye refrain from idleness.

But God hath revealed them unto us by his Spirit: for the Spirit searcheth all things, yea, the deep things of God.

"Consider these words written by Abraham Lincoln as part of a
resolution in 1863:
"'We have been the recipients of the choicest bounties of heaven; we have been preserved these many years in peace and prosperity; we have grown in number, wealth, and power as no other Nation has ever grown. But we have forgotten God. We have forgotten the gracious hand which preserved us in peace and multiplied and enriched and strengthened us, and we have vainly imagined, in the deceitfulness of our hearts, that all these blessings were produced by some superior wisdom and virtue of our own. Intoxicated with unbroken success we have become too self-sufficient to feel the necessity of redeeming and preserving grace, too proud to pray to the God who made us."
'It behooves
us, then, to humble ourselves before the offended power, to confess our . .
sins, and to pray for clemency and forgiveness.'

all things in the lords time will happen

change of hearts

Alma 5
14 And now behold, I ask of you, my brethren of the church, have ye spiritually been born of God? Have ye received his image in your countenances? Have ye experienced this mighty change in your hearts?

2 Corinthians 5
17 Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: cold things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.

Mosiah 27
24 For, said he, I have repented of my sins, and have been redeemed of the Lord; behold I am born of the Spirit.
25 And the Lord said unto me: Marvel not that all mankind, yea, men and women, all nations, kindreds, tongues and people, must be born again; yea, born of God, changed from their carnal and fallen state, to a state of righteousness, being redeemed of God, becoming his sons and daughters;
26 And thus they become new creatures; and unless they do this, they can in nowise inherit the kingdom of God.

Happy Birthday song

The 24 year day has come and gone. not a big deal. for those who remembered my love has grown immensely. there was no birthday cake or gifts. just a for sure knowledge that heavenly father loves me enough to let me know that his son lives. his spirit testified that to me. my love for my family has grown. i know that the path i am on is right, even if it is hard and difficult. for some one to describe me with words like noble and courageous, made my week. tomorrow will be absolute and a perfect day. i know. i will feel the spirit through the work and i will be so grateful. i can't wait to walk through the temple doors tomorrow afternoon. i love my life, even if all the pieces are not all together, hopefully they all will be worth this hard time in my life.

a work in progress

the language i speak wont clear the skies above you
if you only knew, what my feelings could do
ask me why the sky so beautiful at dusk
you must understand gods plan
love never ends until he says stop
all ends of the spectrum fit together
all times of the day there is always a rise and set
the sky is an example of how love is beauty
beautiful is lovely at dusk and dawn
oranges replace the blues
light fades into the dark
opposite ends that are complimentary
completed with what the other knows
but i guess you don't understand
what my feelings can do

i was searching for a smile

on my day i listen to my favorite song


i ask you please c'mon pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeease
oh how i long for something more

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Radiohead says hello

i'm not the one to worry about the atmosphere. the Kyoto protocal


the protocal would cut emissions across the globe, if you are to treat your body your family your country your fellow man with respect. i think we should do the same for the place we live. we are the only country to reject it. we are the united states we do what we want i guess right or wrong

a ton of new music. mostly girly

Lykke Li i'm good i'm gone performed in a bathroom? good acoustics


high places - namer


not a big mates of state fan but i enjoy this song. i'm just a big fan of masks.


she and him + yo la tengo


grizzly bear


m83 - graveyard girl



and the submarines have done it again. just an ad but the new cd sounds amazing. the best girl guy band there is.


radiohead is on conan tonight in 30 minutes.

this place

in my day there are a lot of disappointments. not always with myself but with others around me. every day i step out into a world i can barely stand. this place is where my best friends fade away into worldly things. why can't you see that there's something more? don't you understand that someone loves you more than you can comprehend? maybe its my fault because i don't do enough. i feel so small and have a heavy heart. how long must this burden last? when will i finally get enough sleep and be on a regular schedule. when can i have rest from this place. with any hope, adversity doubles. why must this noise never away, all the annoying sounds go away please. until i feel and hear a calm pause. this place sometimes gets the best of me


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crabby patties

i have no idea how this picture was taken

The crab was so ugly we called it Mahana


then for some reason i climbed up the pillars



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consequence

misses what he hasn't found

give your life to heavenly father and he shall grant you eternal life
4 humble himself as this little child, the same is greatest in the kingdom of heaven.

Lamentations of Jeremiah

1 How doth the city sit solitary, that was full of people! how is she become as a widow! she that was great among the nations, and princess among the provinces, how is she become tributary!
2 She weepeth sore in the night, and her tears are on her cheeks: among all her lovers she hath none to comfort her: all her friends have dealt treacherously with her, they are become her enemies.
2 nephi 8
3 For the Lord shall acomfort bZion, he will comfort all her waste places; and he will make her cwilderness like dEden, and her desert like the garden of the Lord. Joy and gladness shall be found therein, thanksgiving and the voice of melody.

Matthew 2
36 But when he saw the multitudes, he was moved with compassion on them, because they fainted, and were scattered abroad, as sheep having no shepherd.
37 Then saith he unto his disciples, The harvest truly is plenteous, but the labourers are few;
38 Pray ye therefore the Lord of the harvest, that he will send forth labourers into his harvest.


2 Nephi 32:
7 I am left to mourn because of the unbelief, and the wickedness, and the ignorance, and the stiffneckedness of men; for they will not search knowledge, nor understand great knowledge, when it is given unto them in plainness, even as plain as word can be.
8 And now, my beloved brethren, I perceive that ye ponder still in your hearts; and it grieveth me that I must speak concerning this thing. For if ye would hearken unto the Spirit which teacheth a man to pray ye would know that ye must pray; for the devil spirit teacheth not a man to pray, but teacheth him that he must not pray.
9 But behold, I say unto you that ye must pray always, and not faint; that ye must not perform any thing unto the Lord save in the first place ye shall pray unto the Father in the name of Christ, that he will consecrate thy performance unto thee, that thy performance may be for the welfare of thy soul.

D&C 88
77 And I give unto you a commandment that you shall teach one another the doctrine of the kingdom.
78 Teach ye diligently and my grace shall attend you, that you may be instructed more perfectly in theory, in principle, in doctrine, in the law of the gospel, in all things that pertain unto the kingdom of God, that are expedient for you to understand;
79 Of things both in heaven and in the earth, and under the earth; things which have been, things which are, things which must shortly come to pass; things which are at home, things which are abroad; the wars and the perplexities of the nations, and the judgments which are on the land; and a knowledge also of countries and of kingdoms—
80 That ye may be prepared in all things when I shall send you again to magnify the calling where unto I have called you, and the mission with which I have commissioned you.
81 Behold, I sent you out to testify and warn the people, and it becometh every man who hath been warned to warn his neighbor.
82 Therefore, they are left without excuse, and their sins are upon their own heads.
83 He that seeketh me bearly shall find me, and shall not be forsaken.

the importance

of doing what needs to be done. doing what lord commands, listening to the spirit and obeying it. as nephi had said about the spirit and the working of angels

again I say unto you that if ye will enter in by the way, and receive the Holy Ghost, it will show unto you all things what ye should do.

i felt the need to see a family i use to home teach. a couple that lives on base, my home teaching companion and i were talking about it and we said we should see them especially since they are leaving with in a month or two. we went over with just the husband there. we began to talk and catch up, come to find out that they are moving to San Antonio. on my side of town and the husband was in need of finding a job. i couldn't really give him a for sure answer of where or how to get a job, but i do know of a lot of places where he can find things that he would fit in perfect. at the Toyota plant they're building or working with hazmat and hazards material. we prayed gave a lesson and talked. by the end i had a sure knowledge that i have a savior, that heavenly father has a plan and we all fit in it. a sure knowledge that we have a savior, his name is wonderful, counselor, the almighty son of God, the prince of peace. his love is now and has been so clear to me lately, it has humbled me to tears. at the same time comforted me in knowing everything in my life is fine and will be worth it. still it pains for me to know this in my heart and have such an amazing feeling, and at the same time the guy we taught isn't a member and has no desire at all of being a member.

at any rate this is

this IS Fleet Foxes covering fleetwood mac


no matter what I've learned or how far I've come in the past years, i know that i can be brought down in an instant. so many times i feel 10 inches tall and feel more alone than when you lost you favorite toy as a kid, the last key to be played by a pianist, the final lead to fall off a dying tree. or just really bummed out and incomplete. which ever comes first

moroni 7 48 Wherefore, my beloved brethren, apray unto the Father with all the energy of heart, that ye may be filled with this love, which he hath bestowed upon all who are true bfollowers of his Son, Jesus Christ; that ye may become the sons of God; that when he shall appear we shall cbe like him, for we shall see him as he is; that we may have this hope; that we may be dpurified even as he is pure. Amen.

for everything thats beautiful

this is by far the greatest scene in modern day cinema. it hits on so many levels, the symbolism of pointing forward and continuing on in life's journey no matter how hard or unsorted it is, in the end it is well worth the journey to find joy and happiness. then finding that wonderful feeling or moment, you have to look back on life. those words of wondering if it was worth it, "i wonder if it remembers me?" ring so true. i love how Anderson ties the whole jumble of a movie together after that, showing love, hope, birth, death, friendship, innocents, and growth. plus its sigur ros. i cry every time


:::::::::updated::::::::::: hours later god holds your hand
Matthew 13
43 Then shall the righteous shine forth as the sun in the kingdom of their Father...
44 Again, the kingdom of heaven is like unto treasure hid in a field; the which when a man hath found, he hideth, and for joy thereof goeth and selleth all that he hath, and buyeth that field.
45 Again, the kingdom of heaven is like unto a merchant man, seeking goodly pearls:
46 Who, when he had found one pearl of great price, went and sold ball that he had, and bought it.


that is just as beautiful than anything i could ever imagine.

why hate the marines?

days like today where nothing is ever accomplished but watching and making these kids pick up cigarette butts. how dimoralising it is for me and how empty i feel for them. people are out in the world discovering all the wonders of life

another great movie

i must be insane

what are words?

creation comes from imperfection?
a communion of knowing one another is what we strive for. words as a tool is not dead, what is dead is the human capability of having an original intellectual thought in this world of pretentious whining. where ideas and feelings are rejected. where people are sent to die for no reason. where everyone is so easy to control and limits us to fear and laziness

the only thing thats free and will ALWAYS be free is our dreams

Pupils and black holes

theres a hole in mind
that holds time of you
its in the middle of the galaxy
constricting ideas of all systems
dreams stream out from the iris
fades inside to dialate the center
to fall into my mind
event horizon pulls to the end
for there is nothing i can do
no means of stopping what i can't control
no amount of beauty the center holds
i always end up turning to you
center dialation
sensation to fight my imaginatation
if i could climb your strands
to pull me out of trouble
or at least see the whole

everytime i try to turn away
after every mistake

i always end up turning to you

the roo is on

i have my tickets for bonnaroo. i am very very excited to see sigur ros again. very excited to see broken social scene, ben folds, cat power, Robert Plant and Alison Krauss. i'm excited to see BB King, iron and wine, talib kweli, lupe fiasco, and fiery furnaces. i'm interested in seeing pearl jam kanye west and metallica but i'll probably get really bored. still interested in seeing MIA pat green drive by truckers !!! avett brothers, jose gonzalez jakob dylan and vampire weekend

i can't wait to see the art of such and such and all the movies that are playing from the start to the very end. there is no quiet hours. 4 days of party. i'm excited, really really excited.

i'm especially looking forward to the silent disco



anyways i have a fever, i feel like death.

greatest movie ever

eli's drug intervention "i wish you would have done this for me when i was a kid." "You didn't have a drug problem then!"
"skiddl-de boop, skiddle-de boop" makes me laugh every time.


that's the last time you put a knife in me, hear me!?

Dabart falls

pillar of support

I was reading and thinking of how my life is now and what i want it to be. and i love the book of Mormon, i know what it takes to be a pillar of strength, and so i took a segment of my admissions letter into U of Texas and started thinking about my life and at least having it on records. Moroni 8:16 And blessed be he that shall bring this thing to light; for it shall be brought out of darkness unto light, according to the word of God; yea, it shall be brought out of the earth, and it shall shine forth out of darkness, and come unto the knowledge of the people; and it shall be done by the power of God.
Moroni was left alone and described his situation: "My father hath been slain in battle, and all my kinsfolk, and I have not friends nor whither to go" (Mormon 8:5])

About a thousand times in the passed 5 years of my life i have been asked "Why on earth! Did you ever join the marines!" There are many reasons why that ring true. Standing stable and loyal to your family and country. Maybe becoming something strong and progressing in my life. setting a goal that seemed to be only gained if hard work and determination was applied. all the reason and be summed up into one word for me. A word that has guided me and has been of pillar of light and strength.
"grandpa"

around 50 some odd years ago, in this town, my grandfather was standing in the same shoes as me. a young marine trying to start a career and laying a foundation that would help himself and his family one day grow. As a kid his firm and strong ways made a huge impact on my life. while watching him as I grew up, i noticed he stood taller than everyone else that i knew. He was someone who was true and steadfast to his beliefs. Grandpa's way was the right way, the good and true way.
I remember one day helping him in my backyard adding a to our short patio. we sat and worked all day preparing the ground for bricks that one day would be laid down. these bricks would be a standing area for future barbq's, conversations, and a shady place to get away from the heated summer days. as we finished laying the bricks my mother came outside and had us a nice big glass of tea. i remember my grandfathers exact words, something that i never i knew i had in me" Boy Yvonne your son James is a harder worker, I never knew he had it in him to finish this." i sat on the ground in amazement of what i had heard. As the sun blinded our eyes and the sweat poured from both mine and my grandfathers faces. He gave me a smile that i would later receive 10 years later as i walked off the parade deck at MCRD San Diego as I received my Eagle Globe and Anchor. after 3 months of drill, physical training, and courage i was finally a United States Marine. I stood next to my grandfather just as tall as he ever did for the first time.
As i began my enlistment i started to notice that the light and strength my parents and grandfather gave me growing up was starting to fade away into the dark. i was now on my own and very independent. i was set into motion and could only look back to make sure my bearings where correct. i applied the fundamental things i was taught as a child. the examples that were given to me by everyone started to become more like second nature to me. All i wanted out of my life was to be successful like my my grandfather was. He has retired 3 times, hard work flows through his body, he has remained a strong person for everyone in his family. the riches he has are more than of this earth. the love our family has for one another is simply amazing. I am truly blessed for the love i have from my grandfathers family. After 5 years of service the one thing that i have found to be true above all others to be successful is remain close to your morals and standards. hold tight to the things you believe and you will be blessed in return. after flowing in his footsteps all i want to do in my life is work hard and progress. to have a family that is eternally together. and as i sat watching general conference it was all summed up to me by Cheryl C. Lant, Primary General President

"At the end of my father’s life, he passed much more on to us, his children, than a red ruby ring. His body was spent, but in reality he stood as a pillar of strength, an example of righteousness and truth. His very life held the traditions that strengthen us today, even though he is no longer with us. He was “steadfast, and immovable, willing with all diligence to keep the commandments of the Lord.”

what a wonderful thing to have that in your life as i have had with my grandfather. that's what i want to be that's what i want my children and grandchildren to feel not necessarily say when i pass, that's all i want out of this world.


i saw a pillar a light exactly over my head above the brightness of the sun, which descended gradually until it fell upon me, it no sooner appeared than i found myself delivered from the enemy which held me bound when the light rested upon me i saw two personages, whose brightness and glory defy all description, standing over me in the air, one of them spake unto me, calling me by name and said, pointing to the other Joseph this is my son hear him



i know these things to be true, so true they give me hope for the future. i know them to be so true they give me hope in so many other things.

cajun love

ECCLESIASTES 3 the preacher

1 To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:
2 A atime to be born, and a time to bdie; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that
which is planted;
3 A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;
4 A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
5 A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace,
and a time to refrain from embracing;
6 A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;

7 A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
8 A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.



2 Nephi 2
22 And now, behold, if Adam had not transgressed he would not have fallen, but he would have remained in the garden of Eden. And all things which were created must have remained in the same state in which they were after they were created; and they must have remained forever, and had no end.
23 And they would have had no children; wherefore they would have remained in a
state of innocence, having no joy, for they knew no misery; doing no good, for they knew no sin.
24 But behold, all things have been done in the wisdom of him who knoweth all
things.
25 Adam fell that men might be; and men care, that they might have joy.
26 And the Messiah cometh in the fulness of time, that he may redeem the children of men from the fall. And because that they are redeemed from the fall they have become free forever, knowing good from evil; to act for themselves and not to be acted upon, save it be by the punishment of the law at the great and last day, according to the commandments which God hath given.
27 Wherefore, men are free according to the flesh; and call things are given them which are expedient unto man. And they are free to choose liberty and eternal life, through the great Mediator of all men, or to choose captivity and death, according
to the captivity and power of the devil; for he seeketh that all men might be miserable like unto himself.


Mosiah 14 or Isaiah 53

4 Surely he has borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows; yet we did esteem him
stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted.
5 But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities;
the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.
6 All we, like sheep, have gone astray; we have turned every one to his own way;
and the Lord hath laid on him the iniquities of us all.

i will be in tennesse this summer

cause its so darn romantic

oh i have turned over a leaf... epic

Moroni 7 : 19 Wherefore, I beseech of you, brethren, that ye should search diligently in the light of Christ that ye may know good from evil; and if ye will lay hold upon every good thing, and condemn it not, ye certainly will be a child of Christ.

love nothing more than the gospel and you will have eternal life

Alma 38:12 Use boldness, but not overbearance; and also see that ye bridle all your passions, that ye may be filled with love; see that ye refrain from idleness.

in the long run it all has made sense. this is one of the most humbling moments of my life. i have searched in the darkness in my life, i have searched in the morning, i have searched with the lights on. there is always a brighter spot to find. tonight i prayed that these words to be true, i awoke to something of a reassurance that this is not only the true gospel of my savior Jesus Christ. but i have a wonderful testimony of what is right and what is wrong. i know that my heavenly father lives. i know not of a perfect love, or what is true love as of yet, but through time I'll know of it. and soon I'll know what it is to love someone fully and that love is not just a feeling, it must transcend time.

Matthew 5:8 Blessed are the pure in heart: for they shall see God.

amazing

for my birthday. no more ties!

Kenneth Johnson of the Seventy
finding laws in medicine. finding proven principals that cure hearts and minds. finding natural laws not inventing but finding them

1 Corinthians
11 For what man knoweth the things of a man, save the spirit of man which is in him? even so the things of God knoweth no man, but the spirit of God.



The noose is loosed around our necks made of DNA
And every day it's growing tighter, no matter what they do or say
And you can shoot right through with rays of dark matter
Just before they kick out, they kick out the ladder
With rays of dark matter

Do you wonder where the self resides
Is it in the head or between your sides
And who would be the one who will decide
Its true location


Joseph Wirthlin quorum of the 12
1 Corinthians 2:14
But the natural man receiveth not the things of the Spirit of God: for they are foolishness unto him: neither can he know them, because they are spiritually discerned.



Jacob 7
26 And it came to pass that I, Jacob, began to be old; and the record of this people being kept on the other plates of Nephi, wherefore, I conclude this record, declaring that I have written according to the best of my knowledge, by saying that the time passed away with us, and also our lives passed away like as it were unto us a dream, we being a lonesome and a solemn people, wanderers, cast out from Jerusalem, born in tribulation, in a wilderness, and hated of our brethren, which caused wars and contentions; wherefore, we did mourn out our days.




Matthew 11
28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you crest.
29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.
30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.
why wont this thing ask me to save anything?

D&C 110
3 His eyes were as a flame of fire; the hair of his head was white like the pure snow; his countenance shone above the brightness of the sun; and his voice was as the sound of the rushing of great waters, even the voice of Jehovah, saying:
4 I am the first and the last; I am he who liveth, I am he who was slain; I am your advocate with the Father.


D&C 38
30 I tell you these things because of your prayers; wherefore, treasure up wisdom in your bosoms, lest the wickedness of men reveal these things unto you by their wickedness, in a manner which shall speak in your ears with a voice louder than that which shall shake the earth; but if ye are prepared ye shall not fear.

Jeremiah 31
Matthew 2

Adam's fall parallels our saviors sacrifice

matthew 3:3 alma 7:19


matthew 4
20 And they straightway left their nets, and followed him.
love nothing more than the gospel and you will have eternal life

moroni 7
33 And Christ hath said: If ye will have faith in me ye shall have power to do whatsoever thing is expedient in me.

37 Behold I say unto you, Nay; for it is by faith that miracles are wrought; and it is by faith that angels appear and minister unto men; wherefore, if these things have ceased wo be unto the children of men, for it is because of unbelief, and all is vain

matthew 6
19 ¶ Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and rust doth corrupt, and where thieves break through and steal:
20 But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal:
21 For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.

matthew 7
21 ¶ Not every one that asaith unto me, bLord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that cdoeth the dwill of my Father which is in eheaven.

matthew 9
The manner by which God the Father introduced His Son on several occasions is significant: “And Jesus, when he was baptized, went up straightway out of the water. . . . And lo a voice from heaven, saying, This is my beloved Son, in whom I am well pleased.”9 And again, on the Mount of Transfiguration, “there came a voice out of the cloud, saying, This is my beloved Son: hear him.”luke9:35

When Jesus appeared on the American continent, He was introduced in the same way by His Father: “Behold my Beloved Son, in whom I am well pleased, in whom I have glorified my name—hear ye him.”8 And then nearly two millennia later, the same words were spoken to the young Joseph Smith: “This is My Beloved Son. Hear Him!”9

8. 3 Nephi 11:7.
9. Joseph Smith—History 1:17.

matthew 10
20 For it is not ye that speak, but the aSpirit of your Father which speaketh in you.

matthew 11
28 ¶ aCome unto me, all ye that blabour and are heavy laden, and I will give you crest.
29 Take my ayoke upon you, and blearn of me; for I am cmeek and dlowly in eheart: and ye shall find frest unto your souls.
30 For my yoke is aeasy, and my burden is light.

matthew 26 alma 38:12
51 And, behold, one of them which were with Jesus stretched out his hand, and drew his sword, and struck a aservant of the high priest’s, and smote off his ear.
52 Then said Jesus unto him, Put up again thy sword into his place: for all they that take the sword shall aperish with the sword.
53 Thinkest thou that I cannot now pray to my Father, and he shall presently give me more than twelve legions of angels?
54 But how then shall the ascriptures be fulfilled, that thus it must be?

matthew 27
25 Then answered all the people, and said, His ablood be on us, and on our children.

matthew 28
18 And aJesus came and spake unto them, saying, All bpower is given unto me in heaven and in earth.
19 ¶ Go ye therefore, and ateach all bnations, cbaptizing them in the name of the dFather, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost:
20 aTeaching them to bobserve all things whatsoever I have ccommanded you: and, lo, I am dwith you alway, even unto the eend of the world. Amen.

empty

never disappoint the disappointed

4 years to the day

i have dreams
that no one dreams of me
no one who understands
no one who can comprehend
these things I've seen
the 24 versions that are me
until the day we all die
beyond gamma rays and x rays
souls of exploding stars
all connected in space
our arms woven together
constant constellations
lines connecting who we are
subtracting time and the math
removing the emptiness that's between us
i will know you
and you will know me
without hands to apply life's limit
I'd give you the freedom to choose the perfect way of life for yourself.
I'd paint the world all the right colors.
I'd write everything with feelings and do away with words.
I'd sell the numbers that make me count the days i have to wait to see you.
and when we are together forever
I'd sell you the world i worked so hard for.

how true is that

Live the truth and trust the Lord that when you have done all you can, He will come to your rescue.

Love is largely an eternal commitment to think of and help someone else--especially a wife or husband or child--more than yourself. If we keep helping others regardless of their reciprocation, our soul keeps expanding, and eventually we can become like unto God, helping others with no limits.

To me the opposite of love is not hate but selfishness, or indifference. Selfishness shrivels the soul. Constantly thinking of and protecting ourselves causes us to become smaller. If we persist in this, we eventually shrink down to practically nothing.

A good sign of how truly we love someone is how anxiously we help them--even at the expense of our own convenience.

The truest love of all is the Savior's love and God's love for us. Think of the Savior's commitment to suffer for us and even to lay down His life for us, despite the almost total lack of appreciation of those around Him at the time.

when i grow up i'll have this much fun

my aunt was in the paper today she is now the assistant manager of security service credit union

My Aunt Star

my cousin Renee is going through a separation from her husband and she won't respond to any back to me.

i am tired and soar. I'm tired of being alone, i know I've told myself this a million times in 5 years but i can't help it today it makes me feel like this




the topic at work tonight was marriage and how it is not a "goal" in life. I absolutely love when you know the lord and the spirit is guiding you. just because before i went to work i read this talk by Elder Eying
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Elder Eyring

"Happiness in family life is most likely to be achieved when founded upon the teachings of the Lord Jesus Christ."

the point that got to me the most was when the antagonist in the conversation at work said that his wife is a church goer and he isn't but no matter he was better than any church goer she could ever meet. that statement ended my listening and interacting in the conversation.

And the first fruits of repentance is baptism; and baptism cometh by faith unto the fulfilling the commandments; and the fulfilling the commandments bringeth remission of sins;
And the remission of sins bringeth meekness, and lowliness of heart; and because of meekness and lowliness of heart cometh the visitation of the Holy Ghost, which Comforter filleth with hope and perfect love, which love endureth by diligence unto prayer, until the end shall come, when all the saints shall dwell with God. [Moroni 8:25­,26]

(Romans 13:11). That is, "We have made some progress along the straight and narrow path. We are going forward, and if we continue in that direction, eternal life will be our everlasting reward."

i just want my selfish reassurance that my beliefs are true in a tangible form. you are selfish. get it together man.