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BRIGHTEST HOUR

Wandering through starry skies
And when tomorrow's day arrives
I'll be a moment closer to the
Brightest Hour here with you

One step closer, getting brighter
One step closer, getting brighter

Wandering through starry skies
And when tomorrow;s day arrives
I'll be a moment closer to the
Brightest Hour, here with you

my heart is full, it hurts. as i step off on a small journey my thoughts run crazy about you and you and you. i can't wait to make the first step to see you. then again i can't wait to come back to you. i am amazed at all the people i love in my life. i'm simply excited to see all my family, then my olden friends, then my newer friends again. i'm sad to leave the person who has my heart, and my friends that i'll be leaving all behind so soon. i'm enthused to begin this small journey. lucky to hear the Prophet and Apostles. i have a lot of praying to do. there is so much to be grateful of during these hours as i migrate across this blessed country. i know that i will enjoy this trip. its all climatic in a way a story ends or transitions to a newer plot. i'm doing my best to keep the allegory of this entire story to "sacrifice for the gospel."

today reminds me of this Andrew Bird song called fiery crash.

beige tiles and magazines
lou dobbs and the cnn team
on every monitor screen
you were caught in the crossfire
where every human face has you
reaching for your mace so it's
kind of an imposition
a fatal premonition

to save our lives you've got to envision
the fiery crash
it's just a formality
why must i explain?
just a nod to mortality
before you get on

before you get on a plane.
oh, close your eyes and you wake up
face stuck to a vinyl settee
oh, the line was starting to break up
what was that you were going to say?

the most contagious thing is a big smile!

yup

so tomorrow i'm headed back home for 2 weeks. then i'll be headed out to utah for conference. the past 3 weeks of my life have been, for lack of gayer word selection, majestic. its really been easy going and content. its not that i have someone to talk to and appreciates me. it really has been a rewarding month. the best part is having someone around to see and show someone all the happiness that is really inside my heart. its true, i love this wonderful church i'm apart of, i'm really excited for all that awaits me. either in the near future or ways down the road. i'm really excited for all the possibilities that lie ahead. even though i'll be leaving this place behind, and there are people i'll miss. i'm not really melancholy about it. which i usually can be. i think its all just really silly

forever you

can make it last

elafants and budrflys

oh superficial me

i prepare for breakfast in an ordinary way
gathering my things and placing th
spilling my cup filled with tangents
knocking over my bowl of rants

Surprised Skin Ghost and Goose Bumps

my skin is
white as parchment
drier than a downtown office building
where the air is tight
there's time spent
resting on her bones
waiting for the telephone to ring
ba-ring ba-ring ba-ring . . .

my skin is
cold as her toes on the bathroom floor
run back to bed and slam the door
oh what a lovely sound
oh how it shakes the ground
oh what a lovely

skin is my
it's the only thing
that doesn't really fly in my land
and love is my love is
it's the only thing that
butterfly in Thailand

let it be printed on every t-shirt in this land
on the finest of cottons and the hippest of brands
in bolder letters than the capital I
it's the only thing it's the only thing
it's the only lonely whoa



i have a ton to say but i just want to shout from the tallest buildings with true fashion of longing to fly. I have never officially named anyone on this and today Jillian you make me super happy. it'll be 8:43 soon again.

Smashing Pumpkins for Jesus

Speak to me in a language I can hear humour me before I have to go
Deep in thought I forgive everyone
As the cluttered streets greet me once again
I know I cant be late, suppers waiting on the table
Tomorrows just an excuse away
So I pull my collar up and face the cold, on my own
The earth laughs beneath my heavy feet
At the blasphemy in my old jangly walk
Steeple guide me to my heart and home
The sun is out and up and down again
I know Ill make it, love can last forever
Graceful swans of never topple to the earth
And you can make it last, forever you
You can make it last, forever you
And for a moment I lose myself
Wrapped up in the pleasures of the world
Ive journeyed here and there and back again
But in the same old haunts I still find my friends
Mysteries not ready to reveal
Sympathies Im ready to return
Ill make the effort, love can last forever
Graceful swans of never topple to the earth
Tomorrows just an excuse
And you can make it last, forever you
You can make it last, forever you

okay i'm going to break down this song from the smashing pumpkins. its called Thirty-three.
the song is supposedly about Jesus. first off Jesus died at the age of 33.

"speak to me in a language i can hear" prayer

"humour me before i have to go"
that would be judas betraying and lying to him

"deep in thought i forgive everyone
as the cluttered streets greet me once again
i know i can't be late, supper's waiting on the table
tomorrow's just an excuse away"
"the earth laughs beneath my heavy feet
at the blasphemy in my old jangly walk
steeple guide me to my heart and home
the sun is out and up and down again"
this is refering to the last few days he was alive in the Garden of Gethsemane, and facing the mobs of people that rejected him to the cross.

"i know i'll make it, love can last forever"
this is our free agency to choose the right and endure to the end by choosing the right.

"graceful swans of never topple to the earth"
all the miracles that he has and is still performing for us now. they are eternal.

"wrapped up in the pleasures of the world"
this is bad terminology with he word pleasure but i'm sure Billy means that he's thinking about all the good and sacrifice our savior made was worth it.

"i've journeyed here and there and back again"
he understands all

"but in the same old haunts i still find my friends "
we are all united in his name

"mysteries not ready to reveal"
mysteries of heavenly father in all things

"sympathies i'm ready to return"
the second coming.

bunk bed fortress

my buddy is making this awesome bed for his daughters. it would be awesome to do this for my kids. one day it'll happen

awesome

i needed tonight