(2009-03-28 23:12:45) teri_hale: Just wanted to tell you CONGRATULATIONS again. I am very excited for you. I know you have been waiting and preparing for this for a long time. Just a little longer to go. A little warning, the next few months might be some of the hardest yet. You are so close to doing something so incredible that you have Satan worried and he is going to hit you with some of his best stuff. When it seems like everything is going wrong and you can't seem to get it right, take some comfort in that. If it were easy, it wouldn't be worth it. Some of the most difficult trials in our life come when we are trying so hard to do what is right. Just consider it a testament of how incredible you are and what an amazing instrument you will be in the hands of our Heavenly Father doing His work.
(2009-03-28 23:13:37) teri_hale: If Satan were not afraid of your capabilities, he would not tempt and discourage you in order to try and stop you.
(2009-03-28 23:14:12) teri_hale: As always, I am only an email away (and a call for a few more months). I am so happy for you.
(2009-03-28 23:15:08) teri_hale: :D>:D<=D>:-h
(2009-03-29 01:01:12) teri_hale is now known as Teri Hale.

waiting

James:

Though I would send you a note that your papers have been submitted. In a couple of weeks when you get your mission call please call me of your assignment.

Dan Verdejo



now i just wait. and wait. and be excited by myself!

I'm growing

this is very simple.

work out each day for 45 minutes. 5 days a week. work out 1 or 2 different muscles each day.
I work out
chest and triceps Monday
biceps and shoulders Tuesday
Back and Triceps Wednesday
Forearms and abs Thursday
Legs Friday.
I'm trying to gain as much weight as i can so i have no cardio. It shows though cause now i have tiny love handles for the first time in ever. But I can lose that quick.

To produce the muscle ive been on whey protein. i drink a shake right after working out. I mix in a banana, with oats, and 2% milk with the whey protein. its actually really good. I eat almost a full package of tuna every other day on average. (Wheat preferably the scriptures say so!)i always eat eggos, pancakes, wheat and any type of bread with every meal. the more i work out the more food i intake. after the middle of January i got done being sick and started working out. i weighed 145 pounds. the other day i weighed myself for the first time since, I now weigh 160 lbs. hopefully i can gain 5 more pounds, then i'll cut off the extra fat that i gained to get more lean. the difference in gaining and losing weight is simple. gain weight more lifting, less cardio, and more calories. When finding out how many calories you should have you jsut need to find out your basal metabolic rate.
BMR if you have a medium rate of metabolism then that is accurate. if yours is slow subtract 500 calories, and add 500 if yours is fast. After that if you want to gain weight eat 500 more calories, and 500 less to lose weight.

i just love have a hard muscles, being sore, and tired.

my stupid life

and how exciting the littlest glimmer of hope can be. wow i love how my parents almost despise me. my mom reminds me daily how dumb it is that im leaving for 2 years. my dad just simply doesn't like me for being so religious. i think? i don't know those are strong words but they can careless about what i want. The hardest thing about being home is that I am paying the mortgage. the money that i saved for my family goes to my family, but not in the way i wanted it too. now i have to sell my truck to pay for my mission.
Its been hard to deal with it, not so much them but not having any excitement for what i want to do. something that is going to be really happy for me. no one seems to be excited. maybe that will come with my call. yesterday was ward council so i was set to get all the things fixed with my papers. i talked shortly again with the stake president. everything is ready to be sent to him as of yesterday. i should see him in the next few days. and things will be done.
still after all this waiting, i have been doing very well. i haven't been very upset by it all. one or two days of the whole ordeal i have to admit i was very discouraged. i hate the idea of being old and falling behind the age curve. but then i keep thinking to myself i don't look 24. Age makes little difference in the long run. Every day no matter if i'm brushed off, called a retard, or discouraged I am reminded of the importance of it all.
just like today i was fed up with how i am constantly treated by everyone in my house. i get an email from my grandfather, of an audio track from some glen beck show, with Ezra Taft Benson speaking. Some how my grandfather the guy the most inspired me to become a member of the church, even though he is not a member, consistently finds ways to recognize the spirit in his life. its important to do what is right no matter what situation you are in. the stake president apologized for how things were going. he said something that is very true, the church organization isn't ran perfectly, but there are wonderful things happening from the imperfections. its as if heavenly father fixes it with many blessings. its very true