eyes will fill our eyes like cats

so today for our combined priesthood relief society we talked about how our eyes can be changed and altered by the devil. how he can create spots in our eyes that can impede the light of Christ to enter. or scope and perceptions can be altered so very easily. for instants we can be so consumed with helping out our family and ourselves we neglect others around us. by so doing that we forget others that we could help and vice versa. its easy to be blinded and fall into a dark spots in our lives with out acknowledging the light of Christ. there are many occurrences of this in the Book of Mormon and the Bible. where the good turn the bad into worse. or when the a nephite turns and leads the lamanites into a revolt. just that little bit of a spot in your eye can lead to you only seeing the blackness. i had heard this simile before. andrew birds cataracts

And they shall enter from the back
With spears and scepters and squirming sacks
Scribs and tangles between their ears
Faceless scrumbled charcoal smears

Through the coppice and the chaparral
The thickets thick with mold
The bracken and the brier
Catchweed into the fold

When our mouths are filled with uninvited tongues of others
And the strays are pining for their unrequited mothers
Milk that sours is promptly spat
Light will fill our eyes like cats
Light will fill our eyes like cats
Cataracts

all the evil things that try to or enter my life always sneak up from behind and rear the ugliest of faces. spears and scepters in hand. coppice and the chaparral is the road blacks that the devil has entered in front of your path. and then he will try to speak for you with his own thoughts and you will feel like a stray cat and as you taste the evil, hardships, and ugliness that can enter your life it will be spat. light disappears behind the cataracts.

know thy self

after being burnt out all night and morning i have nothing to do for the next 4 days. as i start to get upset over not having anything to do, having limited friends or anyone to hang out with. i start to think more about myself and realize how little i care about doing anything with the guys i do know. mostly because i don't want to be doing what they do 85% of the time. after spending months of non stop work it feels like i'm drained out. so all i want to do is lay down and do nothing. If anything at least i know i can convince myself not to be depressed. so i've made a pledge to relax all day and watch football on my butt. besides its almost fall, its my favorite time of the year

in the morning tell me why Blue Tulip

Radiohead :: "Tell Me Why" (neil young cover)

another day i grow tired of

Tell me lies later, come and see me
I'll be around for a while.
I am lonely but you can free me
All in the way that you smile
Tell me why, tell me why

Is it hard to make arrangements with yourself,
When your old enough to repay but young enough to sell?

i am tired. i am bored often. i am dead tired one minute and full of energy the next. i feel like everything is in disarray. so i'm just gonna go away. and not be around as much.

just reading along

after reading it again it really fills my heart 3 Nephi 17

3 Therefore, go ye unto your homes, and ponder upon the things which I have said, and ask of the Father, in my name, that ye may understand, and prepare your minds for the morrow, and I come unto you again

5 And it came to pass that when Jesus had thus spoken, he cast his eyes round about again on the multitude, and beheld they were in tears, and did look steadfastly upon him as if they would ask him to tarry a little longer with them.

6 And he said unto them: Behold, my bowels are filled with compassion towards you.

21 And when he had said these words, he wept, and the multitude bare record of it, and he took their little children, one by one, and blessed them, and prayed unto the Father for them.

22 And when he had done this he wept again;

23 And he spake unto the multitude, and said unto them: Behold your little ones.

it don't just think of the children but also to the ignorant. the ones who haven't learned all they can because they are or can be just as innocent in the same ways. "forgive them for they know not what they do"

BORING, nothings right

for a good while nothing interesting has happened in my life. its been really boring. i made a decision to go on a mission and after that its been very monotone. plus i've had sleep deprived, now i'm extremely tired all day. after all the work i put into a place that has given me basically nothing, i'm still working all day, and this coming friday will be another long day. its going to be a lot of tedious work. after that is done i should be through with it. most people around the marines get awards for the hours i put in, i've seen it. after coaching and volunteering the things that is supposed to be a medal too. but i'll never do that for myself. i'm just so bored with things and tired of it. i rewarded myself today though, sorta. i bought myself a new tv.


next week college football starts and i'm excited to be lazy and watch it. okay well someone might say well its just a punch of guys knocking each other over, but its more than that. its one of the most pure things that is still left in entertainment. in These states it is the most important and best sport there is.
i haven't gone fishing at all in the past few months either. i haven't done anything i have wanted at all really since bonnaroo. all these attempts to hold on my youth. it'll make you happy.

another thing i noticed about my past few weeks i have a few crazy photos on my phone that are funny

how do you know your car is a piece of trash?
the correct answer is: some one throws trash bags of trash on it and no one takes the trash bags off for days on end

Also these 2 spiders are in a store room at one of the sites i work at.

the top one is a Black Widow, and the other is a huge wolf spider.

black swan

the only thing i know for certain is i don't know.

i think i know who i am
i think i know what i want
i want a new flat screen tv and a record player
i guess that means i want records too
i wish i could sleep on a regular pattern
i wish i had a girlfriend, no one really needs to see that
i feel like i'll be stuck here forever, it still does!
i need to clean out my truck
i need to change banks
i can't wait to leave here
i can wait to go back home
i miss a lot of people
i want to strangle a few people
i am being a really lazy person, its starting to show
i am so bored of this place, its killing me
i am positive nothing is for certain, and that life is very unpredictable, the scope that we perceive it is tiny and that is what makes everyday special
i know that every new day is a blessing full of i don't knows
i have to change the world

last night, I looked over freedom

i got a new perspective of how special this country really is. Though i wasn't above it all, i seemed to be the first contact point for all troubles this place had. all problems that were had were brought to my attention first. For every other time i had duty i wasn't the one in charge, this time should have been no different. but in the military, things aren't by the book. after the turmoil of the day ended i saw the base continued to breath and not rest. at 2:30 in the morning i saw marines running and training. as the morning commuters came in at normal business hours. a steady flow of cars kept coming in turning to go to the flight line. every small instance of the right thing that never goes noticed. i couldn't help but to feel like i had a heavenly perspective. i could imagine how the heavenly father feels when we simply do the right things. as i thought about all the wonderful things i have experienced in my life. i became very grateful. when you go to sleep at night remember there are people watching over you. at some instances they are even passing away for the everyday life you have. In some of us our heavenly father has bestowed upon us a feeling of responsibility. So we feel responsible enough to sacrifice our hearts, bodies, minds, and time for this country. sometimes in that instance time becomes more than a calculation, but it becomes eternal. just as our savior did for us, his actions apply, the greatest thing you can do is to die for your friends.

"All brave men love; for he only is brave who has affections to fight for, whether in the daily battle of life, or in physical contests."


still nothing compares to what our savior has done for us. for the things that i write down, the strength that is given to me, and all the blessing in life i am forever grateful.

hey Mr. Man

ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh crappadoodles.
i have finished 11 hours of my last marine corps duty post. and i have had one of those days that is just annoying. maybe that word doesn't fit the exact feelings i have but i'm already dead tired. i have 13 more hours left. i'm ready to just lay down and not wake up until friday. first off i have my superior i guess you can say. some Navy Doodle guy. he has no earthly idea whats going on even though he's been in the military for 18 years. today i have delt with 2 domestic violence disputes. some guy choked out his wife. the other wrecked a house breaking his wife's phone and removed her internet connection. seriously was by far the craziest phone call i've ever had to deal with. then i have weird people asking for information on the Executive Officers wife. like yes i'll just give out all the info i can to someone over the phone. and the weird peoples response to me telling them no i can't. "Oh well we have been friends for a very long time!" oh in that case i'll just tell you everything you need to know"! after the guy was arrested for choking his wife i had enough. now i'm laying down for a minute and just thank and feel blessed for just the way my life is. and be joyous for the day i have a lovely wife and be blessed to take care of her every second of the day. i promise not to choke you!

Hello im talking to you

hello Mr. blog. how i despise your face. do you know what its like to be stuck in a rut for 5 years? do you know what its like to live in a room with someone else that is 12 by 10 ft? do you know what its like to change your way of life and have none of your family understand the path you want your life to go? have you done everything that's right on your own? don't you just wish to escape it all. discover everything that's real? don't you feel so confined and trapped, wanting to express your real feelings? how you wish to jump off my screen and relate to anyone and everything that shares your feelings? you should hear my thoughts about what i have to say. you really should. don't you hate how everything is connected to the eyes, and every relationship is connected by the tongues and privates? how i wish my soul was touched and my mind was felt for once. that everyone who is to busy talking can hear with their own thoughts. do you know how i feel? Mr blog shut up. no one listens to you. no one wants to hear your stories.

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