i'm exhausted! i'm gonna wake up now

i went to outback today, watched the Belmont stakes. and had some food with Rimmy and Ripley. we had this waitress who was more than friendly its one thing to be a flirtatious with a group of guys but this was a little over the top. but really how can a girl be over the top in todays modern world when it comes to using what she has to get money? Especially when she was directing all the flirting towards me. i don't think i'm an UGO nor do i think i'm gods gift to woman. when it comes to girls i'm very modest at first but once a conversation is started, its on and i can really get things going and be my natural funny self. pretty much happened today. and i took it with a grain of salt and didn't pay any attention to it. it all started with me thumbing through all the alcoholic drinks. and she sat down next to me and pointed out all the drinks she thought i'd like. and i just looked back at her and said "thanks water please." which lead to an ordeal of us making fun of each other blah blah blah. no big deal. so i go to Rips house and whatever i get home and look in my to go bag and find this. . .

its prolly just once in a life time thing, in no shape of the words ladys man or anything of that sort should my name come into play. actually its just lame for me. to sum up my feelings, after a small moment of being flattered, is depressed. i never get the one i want.