i'm so thirsty

i spend a lot of money on water. i always feel like I'm gonna dry out. i can knock out a 20 fl oz bottle of water in two gulps. easy.
i have been so frustrated the past 3 days. all i wanted was to be somewhere at peace. the past 4 days my roommate has been watching the sopranos. its one thing to watch it on A&E. its another to be watching it on DVD unedited full porn thing. I'm just reminded of all the short comings i have. all the wonderful opportunities that I've missed. its hard enough to deal with these tiny terrible things on a daily basis, with the friends i have who do all the things i use to do and haunt me in terrible ways. all the things I've worked for have been forever away in the environment i am in. no one has helped me since I've gotten here. I've been on my own. I've tried so hard to remain a worthy priesthood holder. minus a few moments I've done so well. and after having a great few weeks i found myself trapped. trapped like i was a few years ago. all the things i want and have given up so much for. for all the struggles I've had, I'm still doing what i can. I've gone through these times with only heavenly beings and spirits helping me. if i can do this when won't i be blessed? what can't i do? i pray with every being in my heart tonight that these things and my faith will be like a stone and be pure.

and when i had no hope i read this

D&C
54 They are they who are the church of the Firstborn.
55 They are they into whose hands the Father has given all things—
56 They are they who are priests and kings, who have received of his fullness, and of his glory;
57 And are priests of the Most High, after the order of Melchizedek, which was after the order of Enoch, which was after the order of the Only Begotten Son.
58 Wherefore, as it is written, they are gods, even the sons of God—
59 Wherefore, all things are theirs, whether life or death, or things present, or things to come, all are theirs and they are Christ’s, and Christ is God’s.
60 And they shall overcome all things.
61 Wherefore, let no man glory in man, but rather let him glory in God, who shall subdue all enemies under his feet.
62 These shall dwell in the presence of God and his Christ forever and ever.