furiously disappointed

for the first time in i don't know how long, this weekend someone genuinely treated me like a real person. It actually happened on more than one occasion. Twice i was bailed out of a pickle, someone stepped up and took care of me when i was down. One more time someone was helping me with something and gave me a look of "yeah i understand what you are going through". Every time i was grateful beyond words. The temple was absolutely amazing. i doubt anything has had more profound effect on me than being there.

but today was one of the worst of my life. i can't even find the words to describe the disappointment, dejection, and rejection i feel right now. after desiring to pour out all these feelings they won't get the best of me tonight.