the new me

so the past 3 weeks i've become very eager to leave my old life behind. so i have started over, this is a time to a start a new pattern of consistency. I'm excited to leave the cell phone/internet world. i've decided not to get a new cell phone when i come back unless the company i work for is going to give me one. i think i'll let go of the internet too. but that is to be determined later. my main thing is to make my life more human. so if you want to talk to me i'll write it down, i'll speak on a phone but mostly i'll see you face to face. I want you to be real. i want the human factor to matter the most. i have felt so isolated my entire life. all the worldly things say "maybe or possibly it could happen". or all of these feelings could be in a fad that is getting ready for my mission call. anyways life goes on.