i have learned i'm a wee bit girly

the past few weeks have been full of stress. even though i know it is the adversary trying to discourage me, i have done my best to stay positive. tonight and today were no different. i don't think i have handled these few weeks the best way. but i think i've come to realize how do handle it. tonight all i wanted to do was bake a 2 cakes for the kids and read scriptures. so far i have made a cake and read a chapter. turns out home boy doesn't bake cakes! but i'm working on another one that is really jacked up but we will see how it goes. i reached my limit of adversity today and i could just feel the spirit leaving me. as i often do when wanting to feel the spirit i just think of church and hymns. soon one will come to my head. tonight the one that stuck out when rambling spiritual words in my head was "i feel my saviors love." it stuck out because of a two boys i teach. they have horrible voices, i mean high pitched and they screech. but they sing it with true feeling for the savior. they put their hearts into it and i can always hear them sing in church cause they try harder than anyone else. when i heard tonight in my head i felt the spirit. once again, like so many times this week, i started to just tear up. i know that he is there and his love is constant and it never disappears. it is in the forefront above everything else. just as the little boys who sing like angels.