time is worth

when i purchased my ticket today. i know for a fact i picked the earliest flight available. i know i did. when i showed up they had me leaving on a totally different flight. not even the same time am or pm. but there is nothing i can do. the receipt says something different as well. i don't feel upset, as i am just eager to leave. for the first time ever leaving home i was not even a tiny bit sad to leave. now i feel as if im going to burst. another day holding in these feelings or the ability to express them is almost to much. in someway i feel as if i won't be able to let them out at all. the time i do have is just not enough. i have calculated all the possible time and even then it would just not be enough. and losing an evening just destroys me. but in a way this is what i prayed for. i asked for a confirmation of how i really felt and now i know. if i only knew how to express it in a way that could be received easily. more prayer is needed like always.